April 28, 2008
I’m sitting at lunch with one of the worst slackers in my entire team of students—he’s in to make up a quiz from three months ago. Bright, gangly; often out of school during the first day of any given hunting season. The words “You’re so gay” are about as prevalent in his vocabulary as, well, nouns.
He has a kind and ironic sense of humor, though, and it is this that has me laughing like an idiot about a story he’s relating about a sub, who apparently cemented his power structure in the class by introducing himself as “King Johnson.”
“And then we started talking about rainbow t-shirts, you know, tie-dye,” says my student, “and then I said I didn’t like them, and he called me homophobic.”
He pauses.
“Like, what does that MEAN, Ms. S?”
I have struggled with nearly every aspect of teaching in this first mainstream year, but one of the things I can manage to do with kids is navigate fairly sensitive topics. We start a very matter of fact conversation about what people mean these days when they say colloquially that someone is homophobic. I wait for the putdown, the expected profession of revulsion, the unthinking spitback of adult conservatism. Silently I start marshalling my defense of treating everyone with dignity, regardless of whether one agrees with their choices.
My kid pauses again, now for a long time.
“But one of my family members is gay,” he says. “And some of my neighbors. And they’re fine.”
And now it’s my turn to pause.
“Then you’re not homophobic, Jack,” I finally tell him.
He squares his shoulders. Shakes his hair out of his eyes. Looks at me.
“No,” he says. “I’m not.”
April 28th, 2008 at 10:13 pm
I want to applaud you for your straightforward handling of the situation. Many students figure that teachers won’t be frank with them; the goofs frankly count on it. I think some teachers don’t realize that leveled honesty isn’t scaring, it’s a form of classroom management that encourages respect by modeling it. If a kid is ready to ask the question, they are generally ready to hear the answer. We are, after all, teachers.
April 29th, 2008 at 12:03 am
Someone who calls a black person by a six-letter epithet isn’t neccessarily racist. But they still get in trouble, or get beaten up.
April 29th, 2008 at 8:30 am
Your post really moved me, as do most of your posts, but something struck me when you said at the beginning that “You’re so gay” is so prevalent in his vocabulary. As Ben says in his comment, students need to understand that words have so many connotations, and even though this student is NOT homophobic, his words are portraying him as if he is. As open-minded as he may be, his use of that word can set him back considerably in the eyes of others. And in this situation, that’s incredibly important as his words could be hurting others. Thanks for always making me think and bringing up the real issues here!
April 29th, 2008 at 9:12 am
@Kate: Yeah, I know. I’ve addressed that exact issue with this kid in separate situations, and it’s seemed to have gotten better. I’m in the middle of a unit on free speech and seeing ways in which we can fruitfully address this sort of speech when I run it again. Sigh. Always learning…
April 30th, 2008 at 1:37 am
dina, what about the untold story in this post? what force of nature i’ve not yet observed in middle schoolers managed to compel this lad to make up a quiz he missed almost one hundred days earlier?
April 30th, 2008 at 6:06 am
That force of nature would be me, Jeffreygene.
I’ve screwed up a hundred ways since Sunday this year, but one thing my kids do know is that the slow flow of geologic time, the end of the quarter, or zeros (which I don’t assign), will not erode the necessity for them to show me what they’ve learned. I’m full aware that sometimes it’s only my bird-dogging that gets them to learn it, and that’s fine with me.
Occasionally it has ended up in comedies of errors such as the one above. But Jack passed that quiz, with big smiles.
May 1st, 2008 at 9:30 am
You know, one of the great tragedies in education, I think, has to be the fact that I would probably shied away from this conversation altogether!
I would have been thinking about the email from the conservative Southern preacher…parent…politician. I would have been worried about the radio hosts casting aspersions at the liberal public education system embracing values that the community abhors….blah, blah, blah.
I literally worry about touching on anything that resembles values for fear of the heated pushback that I’ve seen time and again.
Isn’t that crazy?
How did we ever get to the place where teaching tolerance or understanding or kindness or critical thinking or acceptance was something teachers had to fear?
This one moved me, Di, because I question whether I would have done the same thing.
Anyone else share the same worries? Anyone else seen their teaching change because of fear of crossing someone else’s line?
Bill
May 1st, 2008 at 9:52 am
dina, kudos. i’m still more than a bit away from being able to bird-dog that well…still seeking the energy to hang with middle schoolers for a full week without losing my cool at least once. (happens most frequently at the end of the day/week, for obvious reasons.)
May 1st, 2008 at 11:14 am
@jeffreygene: Oh, I got you– still working on the patience thing. Losing your cool and bird-dogging are not mutually exclusive, as I can certainly attest.
@Bill: This topic is worth its own post. I’m just diving into a banned book unit and fear is something I’m squelching every day.