I don’t have a think tank. I’d like one. Filled with multi-colored fish and waving seaweed. A micro-ecology, at which I can smile with pleasure while I push it gently on its sturdy rollers to entirely block my classroom door. While doing this, perhaps one of the rollers would accidentally sever the phone cord, which summoned me from my classroom duties– during class– five times in one period yesterday. And perhaps behind that barricade of blue, where the water burbles wordlessly we trust you, I could invite some other colleagues to come in and create that second, more common level of understanding that is a think tank.

A delusion, I know. Yet I’d like to share the idea of the think tank with the gentleman sitting across the table from me, also yesterday, at a sub-committee meeting on a new school we’re trying to start in the community. He seemed like a stellar educator– smart, committed– but had some critical things to say about how teachers do not want to get their hands dirty with actually writing creative curricula. “They just don’t want to go there,” he sighed, and expressed relief that our alternative school model would cull the wheat from the chaff in that regard.

His words haunt and nag at me. Because, you see, in a given day I’ve heard more brilliant, fun, fascinating ideas from my colleagues– and from my own head– than in the best brain-storming session at TED.

Yet there’s the handwritten attendance sheets, the academic goal spreadsheets, the minutes from team meeting, the hundreds of photocopies, the IEP goal documentation, the phone calls to every kind of parent and guardian, shopping trips out of our own pockets for the supplies schools cannot provide– never mind the ever-enlarging crush of students packed into a room. To pretend that the daily demands of the minutia of a school setting do not outstrip every other kind of organizational model, in both amount and lack of resources, is its own kind of delusion.

The bottom line? My colleagues and I are not automatons. We’re just tired. And no standard of excellence in teaching can be expected to be achieved in any widespread manner without first creating the working conditions under which that excellence may flourish.

Long live the think tank.